The one good thing about my birthday past was that I have a new computer.
The laptop that I got is so nice and I'm really grateful for it. I'm sorry I haven't put anything up lately...... I've been way too busy for my own good.
I've learned alot about human nature lately and what I've learned is peoples actions doesn't reflect who I am as a person.
If someone (who will remain nameless) want's to reek havoc on my life- then disappear to save himself- then I need to let him continue on as long as he's leaving me alone.
It took me a long time to realize that I'm worth more than what somebody thinks of me.
I really feel sorry for the next (victim) that will inevitably get caught up in the web of lies that is this persons life.
There's nothing I can do about that but pray I never get caught up in the degrading way I was treated in the past ever again.
I thank everybody who's taken the time to respond to my writings and my depression that I'm prone to.
I've been working on a poem that reflects the pain that I'm letting go of to move on in my life and to move on to a better and more deserving person.
No one should put up with name calling.
No one should put up with physical abuse.
No one should put up with what I put up with in my past.
I don't want to sound like I'm preaching.
I'm just purging all the feelings I need to let go of in order for me to move on to a better life.
So in conclusion,as badly as I feel still sometimes inside because no matter how much I'm determined to make better of my life I still feel let down and rejected.
Things don't change over night.